Here's the deal ... about a week ago I caught my ex-fiance cheating on me and that hurts, but nothing hurt more than to be lied to about it. Days and hours leading up to me posting this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kyWcXCHchCM on YouTube I begged and pleaded with my fiance to tell me the truth, he didn't. I practically all but told him that I knew what was going on, but he, as most of you know, insisted on his innocence.
That's why I posted the video. A lot of people have asked me why I would post something so personal and well the answer is .... because apparently that's the only way anyone gets the truth. Look at current events and celebrity news, Tiger Woods, former President Bill Clinton, Kobe Bryant all these men most likely denied the truth until a nationwide spotlight was shined on their transgression. It's then and only then are they willing to come forth with the truth and feel any kind of remorse. Why put yourself in the that position?? Why take it to that level.
Have mainstream media and celebrities really gone that far in our lives? Do we really put them on that high of a pedastal that not only are they influencing how we talk, dress, etc., but now they have an effect on our relationships? That's pretty incredible if you ask me.
I posted my very personal video on Wednesday November 25 and it wasn't until that next Sunday that I was told the truth about what really happened. What did he say? Well and the quick and dirty of it, no pun intended, is he indeed went out of our relationship and had sex with this other woman, it wasn't just kissing. When asked why he didn't stop all the cheating and inappropriate emailing he simply said, "I'm sorry, I don't know why. It was all just a game. I didn't and never wanted her; you're the one I love".
After only a few days of being posted on YouTube my, "Honeymoon is Over" video received 700 hits and while I appreciate everyone's support and love that's not why I posted. I needed and deserved the truth and he really made me go to that level.
My truth? Well, I still love him. I'd love nothing more than for him to get help for this problem he has with going outside of his relationships. Would I ever get back with him? I don't know. I've told him that he'd have a lot of people to make good with including me before something like that were to happen. I asked and he agreed to counseling which is a good thing. I guess time will only tell. My next step is Forgiveness.
And I do forgive him.
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Here is my two cents on it; for what it's worth, I really don't know you and Jordan’s situation but I do know one thing. I marry ALOT of people and MANY many times, they want everything PERFECT. Realistically... there's no such thing. Perfection is the perception only from afar. Get my drift? I guess what I am saying is that you can have the most romantic proposal and/or wedding of your life but that won't mean your partner will love you that much more. It doesn’t mean that when life puts temptation in his reach, he will remember how great that wedding was and how beautiful that silver shimmering in the night. NOPE this is when it’s get very simple. He is supposed to remember the way you laugh or how you hog the blankets. That’s what life is. Doesn’t mean he will. He could be just stupid. If that’s the case, then I rest mine. Keep it simple. Love with courage. I applaud your stance.
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