Okay readers, so I've been flooded with emails from all about the ending of my last post concerning my "forgiving" Jordan "ex-fiance for his transgressions. Let me explain something ... when I say I forgive him it's not to mean that I'm taking him back. Those of you who know me know that I"m a stronger person than that. What I mean is that I'm letting go of the hurt and trying not to dwell any longer. I'm letting go of that and of him. Like many of you have expressed, I do deserve better and am excited to know that my "special someone" is still out there looking for me. For whatever reason I'm going through this I feel I will come out stronger and a better person on the other end. I"m thrilled about that envitibility!
To forgive all DOES NOT mean that I approve of what's happen and what he did to me. I'm simply letting go and letting God deal with him. Unfortunately for me, since this has come out I've been messaged by not only friends of Jordan's but some of his ex woman also revealing other transgressions. For example, I've been told that Jordan propositioned an ex of one of his really good friends during Halloween... of course this proposition came after Jordan had proposed to me. I'm in disbelief! It's incredibly surreal. This proposition included, "I've always been attracted to you and I'd love to get together for a Halloween party". Luckily this girl had enough sense to turn Jordan down. I've talked with this girl and she confirms everything.
If there was any hope, at all, in my mind that maybe Jordan and I could work things out it's all gone. Too many stories have been told and confirmed for me to even consider something like that. Sure I still have love for him however it's fleeting.
One of Jordan's really good "girl - friends" sent me a Facebook message the other asking if I feel if I"m getting what I deserve? For those of you reading this, if you'll look back to some of my earlier posts you'll find that I started this blog because I'm going through a transition in my romantic life - a true redemption. Yes it's true that I cheated on all other S.O.'s in my life however the difference between my situations and what Jordan did to me is I told the truth and was upfront. So Brooke, in some way yes, I do feel like I may be getting what I deserve. However, Jordan will to.
Here I thought after being proposed to by Jordan that he'd given me my redemption, but I see my redemption has come now. Hopefully my slate is wiped clean. Going through this time I'm a better person and will be the best S.O. to whomever my husband/boyfriend will be! And that's redemption.
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Good Morning, Kimberly! First, let me commend you for sharing such disturbing information with the world. There are many young ladies, and young men, who will learn vital lessons from your situation.
ReplyDeleteAs I read your blog post, many thoughts derived from the simplicity of your word chose. However, ONE specifically stuck with me throughout the reading, "Redemption."
From a Christian theological perspective, YOU were delivered from the habitual act of infidelity when Jesus was crucified. The price we should have paid as a consequence for OUR actions, Jesus paid it (past tense).
Furthermore, from a clear, non-spiritual perspective, redemption removes a person from bondage and excels them into a state of restoration; it's original state. One scholar says it like this, "Redemption didn't bring a newness of situation but a restoration."
I don't feel as if neither one of you are "getting what you deserve." I do feel as if you, Kimberly, ONCE wore a "jacket of infidelity" but grew out of it. Now, you're restored to a faithful young lady.
Jordan continues to wear his "jacket of infidelity". It's something that he will have to grow out of. Keyword there is "grow". But, you can't grow if you continue to repeat unproductive actions.
Kimberly, you have a great mind and heart. You'll make it; I can see greatness all over you. You're a champion.
Your Friend,
Matthew M. Newman
@thisiswhyiwrite